Date: 2018-01-10 09:14
I would love to write a note to my SD. But I am so fear is the usual type of response. it wasn't about don't you get over yourself , etc. There is so much history here.
Wow, LU sounds like a wonderful woman and I'm glad you shared that story because it gives me an example to live by. How did she handle conflicts and difficulties, especially at first? How did she respond to unpleasant attitudes that so often flare up in blended family situations? Did she remain a neutral party? It's so difficult to know what to do when things go wrong -- be the mediator, or just step off to the side and remain neutral. I believe now that it is better for me to not get involved in that unless I already am involved in some way (such as if I said or did something wrong that causes the conflict).
Again, I truly thank you for your good advice and encouragement to take care of myself by stepping away. It's the only sane thing to do. However, if my SD should ever decide to come asking forgiveness for hurts she has caused me, I will be here to begin anew.
There's one other detail that I didn't mention, and that is that my husband has a half brother and half sister, and there was a lot of friction there before we married. I have brought them all together, and this brunch has actually been a wonderful mending of pain in his family.
Lily, my heart goes out to you. It sounds like you are a wonderful person, especially continuing to send your dad cards though he didn't send them to you. You're right, it is necessary to forgive, accept him as he is, and move on knowing it isn't you, but him. Still, that is painful and I'm sorry for the lack of love your father has shown. It sounds like he may be trapped and may not even realize it.
His parents divorced after his mom cheated on his dad with the minister at church, and couldn't work things out. She remarried first, but he lived with DH alone for 8 years until we married.
There's one more thing: No matter how frustrated, heated, or angry you get, don't say something you regret.
It's easy to do, but somehow the things that you say will be repeated over and over, and the things that they say will be somehow forgotten. Don't fall into that trap.
Sometimes it's hard to convey over the internet what actually happens in a family. Maybe you're not really bothered by what they call you, who pays at dinner, or those types of things. Maybe it's their tone of voice, their body language, a thousand subtle things that are harder to describe over the internet and certainly a lot less clear cut. If they're determined not to like you, determined to exclude you, you won't be able to change that. If they're nice women who have complicated feelings about their dad marrying again, then over time if you are kind, thoughtful, considerate (that doesn't mean you have to pay for their dinner), then over time you may feel like another mom or grandma to them.
I asked my dad, pointblank, what would happen if she finds out about his contact with us. Would he turn his back on us again? He said, No. I will not lose my family again. If she pushes it, I'll divorce her so fast it'll make her head spin. I don't care if I walk away from her with nothing but the clothes on my back.
My reference to preachy posts wasn't about you. I had been working my way through Ranay's post and found my anger growing. It's something I have to work on.